Where is my felt sense

Where is my felt sense?

I write this as I attempt to focus. One difficulty is I turn inside and there’s nothing there.  Of course there are many options to this, notice the nothing, notice the part that wants something etc.  As I try to do this I’m still left with the sense that there’s nothing there.

I’ve also tried an approach where I will notice what I notice, a perception, a thought, an image etc. This seems a lot more freeing but it seems away from what focusing is. Although it seems to pick up my experience.

As I create a space to listen into and allow anything to show itself then I can get experience, it can come in the form of felt images, an image I can see but I can feel is there, and with it comes all the sensation. The feeling of a fun fair and the feel of the light and sounds and tastes.

Paying attention to this “felt image” produces more, it seems to move on. To a thought, a feeling an emotion etc.

So for me these feel like felt senses. Their quality is they have a primary received feeling, they are vague and dynamic, and there is a sense of when I talk about them, there is a something behind them to indicate if the description is right. It isn’t generally in my body, but that general sense of rightness you get, for instance when you remember a name that you forgot.